I am sorry that you are having a tough day today. It will take some time for things to settle down and you are correct that grief does not have clean margin lines.

There were many times that I wished someone would wipe all the memories of my xh out of my mind too. What you are going through is very normal, so cut yourself some slack. Okay?

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.