What to Do? 4

[chris19]

Maybe you need to deal with why you are afraid to lose her. Sure, it's hurts when the person we love doesn't want us.......but you sound as if this goes to a different level. How do you see yourself in the future if the M doesn't reconcile?

This is defiantly something I am going to bring up with my IC on Saturday. I think it is the main reason/question I am struggling with to completely detach. I see myself alone. Not finding someone as good as W USED to be (key word USED TO BE) to me. See myself as a failure (not in like literal terms; but as a failure in the relationship sense). I am scared because I know how good we can be (because we have been in the past); and it stinks to not be able to have that again with her.

blab, blab...

My GAL's activities include coming home from work everyday and walking the dog. Then doing 2 hours of HW, then going to the gym every night. On the weekends I try to get out with friends at least once a weekend, then spend the other day cleaning the house, doing HW, and preparing for upcoming week. I need to find more activities to do during the week I assume. I might try to find a food bank or something to volunteer at these upcoming weekends.

I finally just stopped looking at any social media; it has helped. I did look at phone records a couple days ago I don't know why. I noticed she had stopped calling OM multiple times a day, and it seems she only talks to OM once a week (last time being 11/7). But that is the last time I am going to snoop, no good from it. My stress level has been thru the roof, and I think that it has something to do with not being able to completely detach.

Thanks for the support.



W just texted me telling me about a mole she had removed earlier this month, and they have to go back in deeper; they said its not too serious as long as she goes back to get more removed.

Now this is something I need to respond too.