I'm just moving along with what I want to do nowadays, W is doing the same, not sure what she is doing but lately this seems to affect me because she goes out with friend(maybe) The reason this bothers me is because she is leaving our children by themselves, they have mentioned to other family members that "mom left us a gain and we were by ourselves" The losses for her as starting to occur because of her actions, S17 has flat out told her he will not live at her new house and will be staying with me and I just learned that he will not be going to W's family for Thanksgiving instead spending the day with my family. S13 is not happy and is struggling in school, something that has never happened with him. S13 told me last night that he misses his older brother and if he's not staying at mom's house then he isn't either.
My kids don't want to be around her, I have gone away for a couple weekends since BD(something I never did), when I'm gone the kids don't want to be in the house with her as W doesn't pay any attention to them, so they all scatter to hang with friends leaving W alone in the house. It almost seems as if she doesn't want her own kids at times.
I'm still attending Divorce Care, think there is 3 more sessiions, it's going good but the religion part is really starting to come in to play. I've been in contact with a NMMNG group that will be starting up in a couple weeks so I'm really looking forward to these meetups.
My divorce will be final right after the first of the year, I know this is supposed to be a marathon and take the time given but this entire process seems like it has been a sprint! My marriage of 20 years will be over soon and I'm having trouble wrapping my head around what all has happened, the lack of respect my W has shown to anybody related to me is at times too much to handle. She won't even look at my parents let alone say a word, this is the grandparents of her children yet she won't even acknowledge them with our kids around. I've seen MIL a few times since BD and I still call her mom and give her a hug, she asks how I'm doing and compliments me on my weight loss. I just don't get any of it.
GAL is ongoing, still working out 5/6 days a week and considering playing some hockey again, another activity I stopped doing years ago to raise my family. Along with the fitness and the support groups I attend I will have plenty of DIY house chores to do once she is out of the house which will be in a couple weeks.
Man has this been tough! Can't wait to just move on!
