25yearsMLC 10 Later I FILE D part 8

[25yearsmlc]

No news as it's not even 9 am there.

A friend from an uglier than most divorces, said this to me:

"I know it hurts. Its amazing the spin that gets put on it all until you have a chance to take a look back and breathe. ...the stuff during the legal battle is crap and someone has to win by the other person losing..."

he has a point. H thinks that HE is under attack and that I must want it all, and at some level knows he does not APPEAR to be the hero in the narrative.

I'm not defending him and I won't bother trying to understand him again...

I just pray that I get a fair enough settlement buy out today (it's the only issue at the moment)

and can move on. Hard to imagine co-parenting in any meaningful way. Maybe if d20 is sick again but would she even want him to know? She didn't last time.


But SHE is the one who reaches out to him, however inarticulately. No matter what she says or what armor she wears - I believe she yearns to believe deep down that he loves her.

He11, I yearn to believe he loves her too. His texts of 16 months ago, said otherwise.

Okay I'm rambling nervously. I have a job interview tomorrow, so going to get my outfit ready and hair done.


thanks