I don't know why, except I know the stages of grief do not have clean margin lines, and I seem to have circled back to sadness.
I cannot stop crying. I dream all night, and wake up to a soaked pillow.
It's ridiculous. I was just thinking I wish someone could just reach in my brain and remove him, and any memory of him. A clean start would feel SO GOOD with no memory of him at all.
I'm not going to lie. I've had some DARK, SCARY thoughts the last 24 hours.
I am headed to work, so that's good. And the sun is out today, which helps. Yesterday was cold, hard rain all day, and that is NOT helpful.
If you pray, please send one up for me today.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
