Trying as best I can with Last Resort Technique

[MStarr]

My husband asked for a divorce on August 6th after about 3 months separation. The first two days, I did beg and plead, but after that did the LRT. He gave me a ton of mixed signals in the first week or two as far as being physically affectionate, but then raged at me when I wrote him a letter saying I was sorry and to give our marriage another chance. He has raged at me in a really ugly way twice and seems to just hate me. He takes zero responsibility for the demise of our marriage. He said it was all my fault, that I rejected him. That part is so hard for me. He has never verbally wavered from wanting a divorce. I think he meant the affection in the beginning as just friends. A lot of what seems to be going on with him could possibly be midlife crisis. Anyway, I just wanted to introduce myself to the community. I am working with Chuck who is great! But I need as much support as I can get. My ego is totally shot right now and I'm dealing with tons of guilt.