Hello...can you hear me?

[Georgiabelle]

So......it’s time for an update.

For those of you following along with this windy saga called “The GB Chronicles”, l needed to have an outpatient procedure. Part was necessary and part was elective. If that makes me a vain person, so be it. I decided a long time ago that I would prefer to go out of this world happy versus having done things according to the way other people thought i should. :-) However I needed help so Ex Mr GB agreed. He came over on Sunday and was going to spend the week with me as I could not drive for several days.

He could not have been more helpful. He had to help me get dressed at the hospital and was very thoughtful this week. He took me for my follow lup and we end to lunch. He was discussing his new gf and that old gf couldn’t believe he moved on so quickly. I did not say this but I did wonder about ex gf. I believe she suffered from unicorn syndrome -meaning she thought she saved him. I actually do feel bad for her because I think people who operate with logic realize that dating someone who just moved out almost 12 year marriage two weeks before may not be in it for the long-haul. Not my issue. He was discussing new gf and how he wonders if there’s anything wrong with her. She lives across the country. And seems like a very sweet girl. All I said was that we are all flawed. And everything reveals itself in time.

There were a few times during this week that were exactly like when we were married. We laughed and poked fun at each other, and l was sure I would be sad. However, that wasn’t the case. I think I realize that things in life or just fluid. People love each other but that doesn’t necessarily mean anything or mean that they want to be with each other. It’s just a feeling and what I realized is that many people are always searching for something. They don’t think about the future. They don’t think about the long-haul. They’re just chasing that next something. They frequently think they’re in mortal or that there exempt from certain things happening to them. I felt that way at one time too. I was married. We didn’t believe in divorce except that wasn’t accurate. And I realize now how many people I know like this and it’s more prevailant in our culture. What’s next? Is it better? That won’t happen to me. I’ll just find someone else. Those thoughts. They aren’t wrong or bad- people are never wrong for what they feel. Feelings are feelings. But sometimes it leaves you wondering.

There must be something in the water. The new guy sent me an email last night saying that he realized things were so different between us now than they used to be and that things weren’t all unicorns and rockets anymore. That real life got in the way. And while I heard him I wasn’t exactly sure what he was saying. I think I’ve only seen him once in the last six weeks so I don’t consider myself with him. So I responded back with an agreement that it wasn’t necessarily a bad thing but that you can’t go back. Or I can’t go back. It’s just not who I am nor do I want to do so.

So like other people on the board, I decided to download the Bumble app. And immediately I was matched with almost 700 people. And after going through about 50 profiles, I deleted the app. I believe most people are kind and have good hearts. However, people are super flaky. And that’s just not something I have the capacity to deal with right now. No one owes me any explanations or anything -andI finally realize that. However, one has to be in a good place to do the things. And unlike other posters, GB would love a hot booty call. And no, I won’t get attached. 😜 I will revisit in a month or so.

So to sum it all up, it was interesting in about four years ago at this time my life was unraveling and I didn’t realize it. However, ex Mr. GB came and stayed with me for a week. And it was OK. Actually, it was good for me-in so many ways.

Hugs to everyone.