My idea to separate has been an epic fail

[Caz49]

Thanks Jim, I'm thankful for all replies and advice.

I intend to follow any advice that will help me feel better about myself and my situation.

I got a reply from my H regarding my 'slip' of a text(s) yesterday. Once I'd slept (not much sleep at all) on the purge of texts last night, I emailed an apology this morning. In my mind it was my last correspondence with him and decided to lay my cards on the table. It was a frank and honest email, no begging, no excuses etc

His reply was equally honest in that he said he really appreciated the email, my honesty and that tonight when he gets home from work he will reread it and digest what I've said.

I simply replied thank you. And now I will leave the ball in his court, get more of a life and concentrate on fixing up my house and my business.

This board has been my late night saviour for many years on and off, and I really appreciate the awesome time and support everyone has for each other.