Nothing much going on at the moment. Me and D continue to move forward with our lives, making plans for the near future. Thinking of changing my car if I can afford it. The car I have currently used to be H's so it will be good to get a new one. Slowly letting go of the things that remind me of him.
I've been quite low lately. Can't seem to shake this feeling. I'm thinking of having a bit of a break from these boards. I seem to want to journal less and less because it feels too painful to write the words sometimes. Even now I can feel my heart racing whilst typing this. I try to keep up to date with all your sitches and have been going through the archives too but it's making me sadder and sadder.
I don't know what will happen in the future with H but at the moment it seems very bleak. He obviously has his reasons for staying away from me. I'll never understand but I guess I have to respect his wishes. He knows where I am if he wants me.
I promise I'll be back but at the moment I just need to get myself over this hump in the road. I appreciate all the help you lovely DBers have given me so far. You have got me through some very dark times and I really couldn't have got this far without you.
Loved to you all. Tata for now... Xxxx
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
