Another bit of the phone conversation that just came back to me... when he ssid he would always pay, he added, as his voice went soft:" unless i win the lotery"...
St that specific moment, i felt weakness in my body. In one of his suicidal moments, he had said if he won the lottery, he would desappear and not in the way i thought he meant... brought me back
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