Fighting my way out of the dark - Part 6

[CW2017]

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On a personal level I am coming up to the 1 year mark and only now "appear" to see the wood from the trees. I have seen q a few pointers towards to a full PA recently but I seemingly don't care? It was certainly the case during the summer that I was thinking "OK let's get the anniversary party and then the vacation out of the way and then I'll act because I am essentially done". But now I barely think long term (unless she ****s up big time and makes a deal breaker level mistake, well that will be something different altogether). I know I am trying to mentally detach whilst everyone still lives here so maybe that's my way of blocking things out but whenever I get a hint of a mind movie now I just think "no, that's her and her affair, nothing to do with me". Maybe that's just my way of handling things (and I have the BD anniversary to come) and I am def a NG (with teeth when necessary!) but who knows what is the mind and what is the psyche? Hmm, time to get out the Nietzsche!