Holding my man, you're not quite 7 months since BD. You are starting to come out of the BD fog, starting to grasp that reconciling isn't the ONLY solution, and wrapping your head around the possibility of D and what life after that might be like. But please brother, don't rush into it. You are doing the exact same thing I did at that point in time in my sitch. I convinced myself I was done and moving on. 6 months later I looked back and laughed at how naive I was about it. Then 6 months after that I looked back and laughed at how naive I was at the 1 year mark. Those of us that were married a long time, it takes us a long time to unwind from that and get comfortable with our "new normal". You don't just wake up one day and you're there. "Dropping the rope" is frankly a poor analogy because none of us drop it. We loosen our grip, we let it slowly and gently slide out of our hands and onto the floor, when we get to the end we lower it oh so gently, set it down, lift our hand away gradually, and then we walk away from it. You're loosening your grip but you've got a long way to go, just be patient with yourself and try to be honest with yourself too. I know you're probably thinking "oh but AS I know I'm done!" and I would have said the same thing too. But I wasn't, and it took me a long time later before I realized I wasn't. When you truly are done then you know it in your heart and you don't feel obliged to tell everyone you're done. When you're telling everyone you are, you're really trying to convince yourself.
