When it comes to STBXW, I think I need to just repeat over and over in my head "SHUT YOUR MOUTH. SHUT YOUR MOUTH. SHUT YOUR MOUTH." Oddly, having given up all hope of saving the M has made me more relaxed around her and more prone to just say what's on my mind. I need to keep it to yes/no answers as much as possible.
6 months, yeah. One day this will all be over and we'll have a different life, full of new things to hope for. I try to imagine that future me and what he'd say: "It'll get better. You'll be happy. Hang in there and keep trying to do the right thing."
I have a lot of respect for those who can DB and stand for their M for years. Maybe I'm too prideful to do that.
Me-47,XW-43 S13,S16 M:18 BD:4-23-17 W filed:7-17-17 (5 months of in-house separation hell) W moved out:1-6-18 D granted:2-15-18 Decree signed:3-29-18
