Thanks for the encouragement and support, Pinn and Bttrfly!
And the beat goes on.....
I actually read about ciluzen's tattoo on bttrflys thread and realized I miss this virtual gang! Cil, a tattoo is on my list too! I think..... I could totally chicken out but it is a 180 for sure! Ok... Back on topic- It's been really busy so I haven't had much time to respond on other threads but I try to follow along. Apologies for that.
Lots of things happening and yet nothing of huge importance, but thought I would give another non-update .
So, I continue to stretch the boundaries on my goal setting and since I wrapped up my last few big goals, I decided it was time for another one. Ok.... This is a HUGE stretch goal, but in 2018 I will be doing a fitness competition. Eeek! I'm excited and scared and know the preparation is going to be so hard, but I like a challenge and I am looking forward to the distraction. Whew. Wish me luck! It's going to be a long journey and will be harder than training for the marathons I've done since discovering DB and GALing.
I'll be ramping everything up after the new year so ill at least get to have some fun over the holidays. After Jan 1, the fun stops and it will be chicken, sweet potatoes and vegetables for me. Boo This is just one of those things I NEVER in a million years thought I could do which is precisely why I'm doing it! I have to see what I'm made of!
With that, this will be a good distraction as this d continues to be dragged out... Ahhh yes, the divorce proceedings have been postponed yet again! Ho hum. I recall the days where I would breathe a sigh of relief each night knowing I hadn't been served that day. There was always that glimmer of hope that he was thinking of us/me and what he was throwing away and second guessing himself. I considered each of those days a gift.
Funny how things change and I can't get out of this thing fast enough. Enough already, dude! No more games!
Sadly for him, this extensive time apart has taught me the most valuable lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. He is still stuck in 2015 holding on to his anger and blaming me. Honestly, If he ever wakes up and looks at his choices and behavior it will be a sad day for him. He threw away so much. I guess you know that you've met a whole new level of detachment when you can go from indifference to compassion. Poor guy.... I'm pretty awesome and he's missing out (haha).
Not saying he still doesn't get to me, because he does.... Especially when he is making stuff up! meh- whatever. It's just the rantings of a man who has lost control.
Anyway, I'm rambly. Nothing of major importance.... Just moseying along and doing my thang
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This is just one of those things I NEVER in a million years thought I could do which is precisely why I'm doing it! I have to see what I'm made of! 