Thank you for listening and your kind words this morning. Last night I couldn’t calm my mind. I was tossing and turning and my mind was spinning. When it was approaching wake up time I hit the weights which felt good and calmed me.
1. Thanks for your support in moving out. I have no idea how I am going to swing it financially but for my own sanity I will find a way to make it work. I also think I need a bigger place as some of the kids may want to escape with me sooner than I had expected.
2. Yes, like many of you warned here, w has racked up a lot more debt that was discovered in the d process. It means I am left with less money than I thought would be there. W is mad that I am no longer providing extra cash for her. As a result, I think she is now getting money from OM2.
3. Ownit, I can’t believe the mother of my children would do this either. My w was super mom. As has been said, she is now the opposite of what she was. It is devastating to me and the children. And she still insists everything is normal and the kids will be fine.
4. K, I’m glad they are opening up to me too. So one of the things I’ve changed in my parenting is that I need to be present to my children in a different way now. I really did let w be the parent more attuned to the children’s emotional needs, as I have always felt that mothers are more...mothering. As Irish points out, I’m more of a single parent now...both mother and father, so I’ve got to learn more of those skills. I’m not a touchy-feels guy naturally but I’m getting better.
5. Sotto, I’ve been debating that exact question: nicer now or save money to buy something nicer later. So maybe I do nicer now...for my mental health and to create a refuge for the kids. I also think introducing OM2 while we are legally married and living together is beyond poor judgment...it’s out of touch with reality. I know she is damaging her R with the kids but feel I can’t do anything about that now.
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God, please give me the strength to make it through another day.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving
