1) so h lives with Schmoopie. Same address and she has her kid(s?) so he has replaced me and our kids.
Like, semi officially I guess. It hurts. S31 says it "shouldn't hurt" but I corrected him on that and said "IT DOES HURT and I don't want to hear another comment about what I 'should'/should not' feel. I'm allowed to feel how I feel."
2) Worse...my fav bro, (the lawyer to whom h reached out), has cancer.
His Kidney is getting removed next week and they're exploring to see if the other kidney also needs removal or if it has spread elsewhere.
My Bro is the anchor for me. For all of us really. Yes he Always was my fav and - so what?
I just cannot imagine our family without him. He's my S31's Godfather, and for good reason.
He has 7 daughters, age 10 to 29. My SIL (his w) adores bro and she's a woman of substance, thank God. She will NOT bolt away.
Bro takes great care of himself too...so I'm pretty sure it bugs him a lot at some level. He was an AF pilot so maybe fumes or fuels got to him?? See? The search for the "why" is endless, isn't it?
And nope, life is not fair for sure.
His attitude, (which sets the tone) is funny and stoic.
He told his girls "hey so far it's just an extra organ I didn't need anyhow, and if there's more trouble to it, if I need a transplant - I have lots of siblings wasting their extras...and besides, we'll cross that bridge when we get to it."
he also said Meanwhile, I DO expect a 'surprise' birthday party with way better gifts than last time..."
God, the thing that makes bro a "great man" is not that he wants to be seen as one.
It's that he wants to BE one just for the sake of being his best. Not sure if that makes sense but, he's a great man.
In closing, I'm hoping for prayers for my heart
but mostly for my brothers "other kidney" and the surgeries to come.
What a week.
((( )))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
