MLC or WAS... either way, I'm here

[LAJar]

peace-

I can see how finalizing the D might be a relief. For most this is unchartered territory. I plan to do the right thing and it doesn't always end up that way, by my own hand and many times not. These forums are the closest thing to a manual we've got.

Absolutely OW is just a little (a lot of) extra salt on the wound. But where my life is at, is hard to swallow. In the blink of an eye it went to being a married family and homeowner and all of that is gone. I know his life looks all shiny and great on the surface, but I'm preaching to the choir, at how unfair this is. Honestly, sometimes I do wish he'd experience this same pain. I don't want him to be in pain, I just want him to understand what he's done. I told him before, if D is what he thought was best, I would accept that. It's the choices he's made in how to get there, that I don't agree with of course. It's funny, my family keeps saying how shocking all of this is, but he finally showed his true colors. I don't correct them, but inside I do. I am thinking, this isn't him. I am still defending him because I don't think this is who he really is. It's so painfully sad, I tear up as I type this.

peace, Random, but I have to comment on your writing style. Every time I read your responses to me, it's as if I'm reading a peaceful (no pun intended) poem. I thank you for your words and time.