I think you said you are indecisive.

I have seen that as a theme throughout your posts. it's like you can't make a decision on your own because you are afraid of doing the wrong thing. You can't rely on others to make your decisions. You may be wrong sometimes and that is ok. You learn from it and move on. Take responsibility and accountability for your decisions.

See, this is part of learning to be an independent adult. You can't look to others for these decisions. Trust yourself.