MLC or WAS... either way, I'm here

[peacetoday]

The D part of MLC is very upsetting
I can tell you after its over and all is decided its a relief

try to eat and sleep rest and take care of you-

In the end a thing or 2 isn't going to matter

I sense what bother s you more is the fact that he is in a nice condo with OW and you are alone
His life seems lovely and yours painful---right now maybe--
BUT
Usually the tables turn quite a bit for most MLCers and LBS
Just takes time
Not that we wish them harm and pain but their life choices just can't and don't lead to a happy existance
treating spouse badly act usually has an effect on them -maybe karma or replay just doesn't really bring the kind of peace and joy we all seek-
keep on the path and trust
if you do the right things, your inner work and heal..It will get better