Yeah I just generally lolloked a mess. I haven't smoked in 10 years, but I went to roll a cigarette to walk to the pub with, she kind of told me off cause the kids could have seen. She asked "when would you have ever walked down the street smoking" I asked if she was mad with me, she said she doesn't get to tell me what to do anymore.
I confronted her this morning about a parking ticket on her car, I made a fool of myself as it was from a nursery outing, which I actually knew about but had forgotten. I think I've been desperate to believe their is an OM, but in reality she has truly fallen out of love with me but I don't want to accept it.
I'll try and conduct myself better tonight. I think I'm still reeling from the shock of it all.
