Fighting my way out of the dark Part 5

[Holding]

My old W died during that transition during and after BD. She's gone and (I believe) never coming back.

Somewhere, maybe on these boards, I heard someone say that their XW killed their W. That's something I keep thinking about. It makes this easier for me, for some reason.

I'm no longer the "family man" I was for so long. I loved being a family man!

This will be a hard transition for me as well. My STBXW has killed the family. I guess I'll be able to forgive her for that at some point, I just don't see it now.

And like you I just know that my old W is in there somewhere just afraid to come on out. But I can't restart a MR with this new version of her. There is nothing abiut this person I would want for a girlfriend let alone a W. Which is why I am seriously just wanting to walk away.

Tread, I think AS's point was that the old W wasn't really in there any more. She'll probably never come out even if she is. Walking away is a personal decision that each of us may eventually struggle with. I'm not telling you to walk away, but after fighting for our M so long, we might reach that decision.