We had a quick chat today, I told her what I hope for the future, that I'll work on myself and maybe she will see that we can be together. She said she doesn't see it and refuses to say she'll keep an open mind. She said right now she doesn't need to feel her emotions, she said she needs to be strong to do this and see it through. She said she feels nothing for me, and hasn't for a couple of years.
I guess I really need to start letting go, I just feel that if I give up hope then I have nothing left. But I'm tired of all the games, they're probably all in my mind but it's really taking it out of me. I'm gonna book some leave in a couple of weeks and take a long weekend away somewhere, maybe a retreat or something.
