Gordie: MLC W with a BF...negotiating our D #12

[Gordie]

Ownit,

Thanks. I want to be a great co parent and think that is what is best for the kids. If things get worse which I know they may then I don’t know what I’ll do but guess I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.

SBJ,

You absolutely do know what I’m going through which is why I always value your advice so much. Dang, I wish we could meet IRL.

HaWho,

Interesting there was no OW. I thought that was a part of his replay days but clearly I was projecting. In terms of the kids, yes. I just have to be the best parent I can be under the circumstances. I know they do rely on me being there.

Journaling (venting):

So w decided a picture of herself and OM2 and his name would make a great screen saver! I guess this is how she is introducing him to our family as I have refused to meet him. I resisted the temptation to smash the computer into a million tiny pieces and pretended not to notice. There is no shame in fantasy land.

L is still writing up the agreement so it is still not signed yet. We are supposed to stay together until the house is sold but I am not sure how much longer I can stay on this roller coaster. Once the agreement is signed, I am strongly tempted to unilaterally move out so I can start living my own life. Is this a good or bad idea?

We usually take the kids trick or treating together with friends. I have no idea what is going to happen. W has been talking more about our post d relationship and how our R will be better than ever. Another overnight for w last night. God, please just help me through one more day.