Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 11, filing for D

[Chris73]

Hi Sara. Reading your posts and knowing that I'm not the only one who is forced with making these impossible decisions is the only thing that has helped me get through this day. My W has practically become a ghost and yet her presence permeates through so many aspects of my life. I simultaneously want her to abandon us for good and come home to stay. I have a list a mile long of things I can do to take my mind off the disaster that is my marriage and none of them appeal to me, but the idea of "licking my wounds" makes me feel guilty. I want to move on but I still haven't let go. I know that this is the unavoidable state of limbo that only time can resolve, but some days (like today) it can seem overwhelming. I don't have any advice. Just a simple note of support to let you know that you're not alone.