Fighting my way out of the dark Part 5

[Holding]

Now if you get angry or upset and run away and lock yourself in the bedroom. That makes you look weak. IMO.

Well, I could feel myself getting emotional, and the talk was headed in a bad direction, so I decided to end the talk. I didn't "run away". I locked the door because her emotions were going over the top. Am I scared of her? Yes, in a way I'm afraid she'll assault me and then call the cops on me. I don't put anything past her at this point. Last night I actually slept with the door locked and a hunting knife nearby. There are guns in the house. Ain't marriage grand?

Have you ever seen the look in someone's eyes when you know they've been pushed to the limit? You don't question them, because you know what's coming. They don't even have to say anything; their demeanor says it all. You need to be that person. No more fear; no more running away.

Got it. Thanks. This is a big step for me.

IMO she wants to pick a fight and get a reaction out of you because maybe that is what you have always done? When this happens maybe it re-enforces in her mind why she wants to get a D?

TBH, she has ALWAYS tried to get a reaction from me in our disagreements, and for the most part I didn't give in. So she's just trying more of the same. I do think she wants some emotional bursts from me, maybe not to justify her actions, but to feed her self-centered ego.

Really, she's just very spoiled and used to getting her way. Her episodes of acting out mostly coincide with when she doesn't get her way. They're temper tantrums.