So, today will be a big test/step for me. W tells me (told me last night, actually, that she will be "going in to her office" today for a couple of hours to get some work done. I typically have not had too many fears about her being at her office because I know all her coworkers and am well-liked by them, even friends with some, and I always just figured she'd be unlikely to contact or meet OM while she was there. Too big a risk of being caught. Weekends are an entirely different matter. She went a couple weekends back but I knew for sure that that was for sure related to her office's switch over to a new patient intake system and that most of the other admin staff was going to be there.

Today, however, not sure and... I am not going to ask. And this is my test. I am thinking I will not monitor her in any way when she goes, even though it looks and smells a little suspicious, for a couple of reasons, and in the past I might have put on some monitoring just as a spot-check. Thinking this is a trust hurdle I need to be able to get over, and that if she does reconnect with OM I will eventually get more clear signs and find out.

Sandi2 had cautioned me against trusting TOO fast and NEVER monitoring... wondering if anyone thinks I am crazy for not checking up on her and just keeping my mind elsewhere today... as much as my "little voice" is telling me I should.


H53/W51, R-ing 4/'18

"Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires"-Sg.of Sg 2:7

"So oftentimes it happens,that we live our lives in chains, & we never even know we have the key"-Eagles III 1:3