Thanks Joe. Yeah, I definitely had an opening to take the convo further with at least one of the ladies, but I didn't. I didn't flirt back but I was social and kept a chill convo. It was a bit hard because I wanted to flirt back and take a next step. I know that it's not the right move for me right now and so I am going to keep a lid on it. But man, I'd really like to have some casual sex right about now. I know that I won't do that until D is finalized, but no movement from W on anything (I know it's early in my sitch), so the motivation to keep possible reconciliation in the back of my mind is getting less and less.
It's also pretty clear now that the LBS fog has almost dissipated that the MR was not good for me either. W has to change a lot of things for me to even consider a possible recon. I am pretty much NC with her right now unless it's about the kids, and I don't see her outside of some kid event once a week. Those interactions are getting easier for me because I truly don't care what she says or does. I am still positive and chill, but mostly for me and my attitude has improved a lot. The only reason I go to the events is for the kids - I want to make sure that they know that I am there for them every step of the way.
JM - sounds like you're doing well and are getting to a better place for yourself. I know what you mean about the ladies - I didn't put an ounce of effort last week and I had two ladies flirting with me. The confidence builder is amazing.
I am glad to hear about leads on some good paying jobs. I am going to take some time until end of this year to really evaluate where I want to go with my career. Also, I'd like to make some more money and we'll see what happens when I renegotiate my contract in 2018. I want to have some options to consider.
Thanks for your words about the MR. To be honest, I am at a place where I really don't think about if it's going to work out or not. I'll stand for the MR as long as it makes sense to me and what the situation looks like. I can probably file for D after next June so I have time to see how things play out for me. I am not even going to dwell on that decision until then.
I am going climbing today and then running some errands. Going to then see a friend in the evening and just chill.
TBH, life is good. It's going to be even better in the next few months as I gear up for my workouts and get back into writing. Work had taken over everything, but now I have a breather so back to my goals. Also, my smoke quit date is tomorrow. I planned it weeks back as I wanted to do it after the crazy work week.
