Maybe Things are settling?

[Ggrass]

So it seems xh2 is claiming my acihievements as his own.

He seems much more mentally ill than I ever thought and a few friends have said they came away thinking he was a drug user. It's all very very odd. The new soul mate has been described by a few as a shim. Which Is odd, at one point I sort of had this feeling xh could have been gay.

His life seeems a jumble of made up stories and replaying of times past and others stories and lives. So maybe one of my gut feelings of mlc might have been on the money. It's hard to wish him any harm but I don't really want any part of that crazy.

By contrast life is peaceful, things are moving forwards just in a normal way. The lack of daily drama, the lack of sleep deprivation and gaslighting is just so nice. However I do find any slight threat of old stitches replaying out , I still get hackles. I don't like being in the triangle and often people place you there. I need to get better at staying out.

I find I still want to help and to fix if I'm not careful, and need to stand back more at times. I need to learn to be asked or invited to help. I guess I'm a work in progress too.

My other big area to work on is making plans and working thru to the end. I need to do more long range plans, for the farm and where I want it to go.

The other big area, is boundaries and sticking to them. I need to stay the course when I decided something. Not allow another's selfish stuff to set the agenda in my world.