Hi Nicole, I'm so sorry you have been struggling with your health - it is such a tough time and that does happen for many people. It took a little while for me to regain my appetite and sleep better. I did lose weight and it took me a while to put that back on. I didn't work for a little while after BD - I left the area and my job too when XH and I split up. I was lucky to be taken in my Mum and Dad and live with them for a few months. I had no-one to look after but myself and very little pressure, so I was lucky.
Every day, do try and do something nice for yourself - a bath, nice cup of tea, some healthy food, the sun on your face, a little walk, meditation. Also, I found it helpful to see a therapist for a while to talk about things and cry (a lot!) Your current health challenges could well be due to the great stress you have been under, but hopefully the tests will be reassuring and you'll understand what is happening and what treatment is available.
Do keep posting, taking care of yourself and calling on support when you need it. Family and good friends will be happy to help and don't be afraid to ask.
Take care and I hope you start feeling much better soon xxx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus