Accepting things we don't understand is a HUGE life lesson.
Especially events that cause us great pain. Refusing to accept - prolongs the pain. And many many people in our world do not ever accept what has been lost.
My bff's athletic 22 y/o son died last year, due to a freak heart defect. She will never understand "why" he died and yet she must go on. She has another son, and a h whom she loves. But her pain is brutal and tbh, a lot of it is probably permanent.
I figure if she can get up every day and get outside and help others and learn to laugh a bit again, and she does, I can. I accept that my m was once a beautiful thing, and it is no longer around, so I move forward in my life.
I will create another beautiful thing, i.e. my life.
Cali, you are doing this^^ and maybe someday after the dust has settled, you'll date.
I bet the water is warm when you dive in.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016