Awkward Situation Got Much Worse (part 3)

[25yearsmlc]

To answer some questions...yes, I stated I feel like thriwing in the towel. I have had this thought pattern before my W said she wanted a D the first time a year and a half ago. I would try and try to be the perfect husband with no effort from her, so I would ponder whether I try harder or more or give up and move on. Fast forward to now, and I have an internal struggle of trying to save our M or kicking my W to the curb and moving on. I know now that her prior lack of effort was because she was having an affair.

AND b/c she saw she would not lose you by having an affair.

I'm not here to pile on, b/c I know you are already deeply wounded.

Just hoping you learn what you can from the mistake made, last time. So that there is no more next time.

BTW

in 2006 when my h's first MLC or "EPISODE" or whatever this Alaskan obsession is caled,

i wrote that "if this ever happens again, I'll walk away and not look back."

B/C FOR ME overlooking so much selfishness and prolonged deceit was a one time deal, and I could not endure that again. Not b/c I wanted to punish him, but b/c I simply knew deep down that I could not do it again.

Not if I wanted to maintain some semblance of self respect and self awareness. DBing was Hard enough to do the first time.

How on earth does one overlook the exact same betrayal, and not feel like an enabler?

And What was I modeling for my kids by staying?

Looking back now, H did not learn whatever lesson he should have learned, from the wreckage he created back then. For whatever reason, h made no significant lasting changes.

I mean, obviously my h did not learn a lesson b/c he repeated the same mistake(s)~!!


Any of this^^ resonate?