You are doing good. You are reflecting on your situation and yourself, also you M. It's a hard thing to do. And it's a hard choice to come to, to be done with your W and M. If you really feel that way, nothing is wrong with that. It sounds like no R is what you want. To me it seems like your choice is coming from a place of strength and not weakness.
If you truly believe you gave all you had to give, then moving forward with your life is the right direction to go.
Keep growing my friend.
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.
