Lost on how to save my marriage! 4

[joejoe1]

Update,

So my wife and I talk last night. Got personal. When I got home from work, we was having a good conversation. She noticed I had smoked a cigarette. I told her I had stopped. I lied at first about it and she got really upset. She went into this spell about how, she has been working hard to tell me the truth about everything she is doing. So after I apologized for lying about smoking and things calm down. She also started crying and said she wants to trust me (to be honest in my head, I was like, seriously, but I digressed). I did lie and I was 100% wrong. So I asked her was she ready to have a hard conversation, she said yes, we could do it later on after the boys went to bed.

Hard Conversation:

So I asked a bunch of questions, only a few about the OM. I didn't want to give him any attention, but I had to address a few questions.

Then we went into us, I asked her what we were doing, See responded with, working on the M, I don't know what you are doing (the last part was sarcasm). I was caught off guard.

She went into she has never felt the way she has felt around me now and she don't know how it happen (her feeling good around me, her not wanting me to leave and dropping her guard and letting her open her heart back towards me). She informed me that I was so negative and mean that she just closed herself off to me, that now since I have been positive, optimistic and nice, that it's easy to communicate with me and her wanting to do things for me. Not the NGS nice, but the I do things for her and the boys not expecting nothing in return.

She said she felt guilty about the A and she was sorry. She explained how I didn't make her feel sexy and never told her how beautiful she was for over 6 years. She told me that having sex with me, she felt like a piece of meat. She said I didn't make her feel sexy because I would belch in her face before a kiss and walk around passing gas (dam, as I typed it, it sounds horrible). She also mentioned how my hygiene was also a huge turn off. I would not take showers every night. Now I do. I gain 50 pounds, and didn't care how I dressed, another huge turn off.

She informed me that she want our sex life to be better and she wants me to do more to get her in the mood the right way, not just when it's time to have sex.

We both went into things we didn't like about our sex life. She also told she also got lazy during sex, and it was because she felt like I was really not attracted to her.

I'm still trying to believe all of this. She also informed me she think we will make it, and that there's a lot of other couples that has made it through a lot worst.

I'm staying to course, I'm continuing to working on myself. I'm ensuring that I don't pressure her.

Do I call this piecing?