I think the "goodbye kiss" that you are referring to ( and if I'm wrong, toss this out, because honestly, after reading so many threads, I may have confused your sitch with someone else's)...... was more that she kissed you goodbye b/c she was FREE for a bit, not that she was going to miss you. I know that sounds harsh, but I mean it in the kindest way.
Sometimes, it just is what it is. I hope I'm wrong.
Yes, get out and get a life when you can. That is exactly what we are saying.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton