not positive what or whom i miss. I feel my life lacks structure and direction.
Which annoys me - deeply - b/c it means h provided that, and what really is true, is that for the past several years, I revolved around HIS dreams and hoped HE would stop feeling restless. So that I could direct myself.
Like I did not allow myself to pursue (or even know anymore)my dreams b/c they might not jive with the "family/marriage"
which meant jive with h.
And turns out he resented my lack of direction, or says that.
Jesus. REDIRECT time.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
