Thank you for all the supportive messages and good to know that other people have been through similar things and are doing well.
I'm getting on with things and feel good. My husband sent me an email yesterday saying that he is trying to change and that he wants to meet and talk and that 'he cares about me and always will that he has always wanted a baby and to go through pregnancy things, so wants to make sure I am ok. And also that he has been having lots of dreams about me and the situation'.
I am skeptical about any change when he seems so unstable, 3 weeks ago he was telling me I wasn't being civil and now I get the complete opposite. Without some professional input I don't think he can change at all. Because he will still be surrounded by the same people and doing the same thing.
I would be willing to talk if he has something of consequence to say about the practicalities moving forward, but not sure if that will happen.