bttrfly/Job, thank you both so much for the visit.
As time goes on, I am actually finding it harder and harder to fake it. I don't know why. I think it's because I am tired of this sitch. The funny thing is, is that I would love to have been an actress when I was younger! But I really don't like the script that I have been given!
I know I shouldn't expect him to help me, but that doesn't give him the excuse to behave badly and make such mean comments. In fact he needn't have said anything at all if he wasn't interested in helping. I haven't asked him for any help at all. In fact me and D have been to the garden centre loading large bags of decorative bark in and out of the car with no help from anyone. I think I will just not mention anything to him in future.
Job, the going for coffee thing. I really need to stop doing this whilst I still feel incapable of controlling my emotions! I have learned my lesson at last!
In other news. D has responded to her Dad's email and has agreed to start communicating with him. We will see what happens.
Nothing from H, but I expect the next time we hear from him will be in December for D's birthday. At the moment my ability to treat H with loving kindness is slowly slipping. If he texted me tonight I don't think I could be bother to respond, I just don't have it in me at the moment. Maybe I'm just going through a phase. I don't know!
Happy Monday everyone! X
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
