Hey DB land! Hope all is going as smooth as possible for all of you.
Been a few weeks since my last post. I've been a busy bee. After climbing whitney, I turned around and went on a medical mission. It was very enriching and eye opening.
This weekend was my first weekend in town and I spent most of my time cleaning out my stuff. I was working on my KonMari purge about a month ago, then life got in the way and my place became an utter disaster so I started over this weekend. After the mission, I know with 1,000% certainty that I really want to live simpler. Having lots of gorgeous shoes isn't going to cultivate any extra happiness.
Other than that, everything is going well.
For some reason my anxiety with ex over the last few weeks has been heightened. I've had to shoot him a few emails... And it doesn't matter what I do or what my intent is, he uses it as an opportunity to smash me. Ughhhh it's exhausting. I want to just say, "forget it, it's not worth it" but it's over the dog, so I'm going out of my comfort zone and pushing a bit. The old pax would allow him to bully and then I'd retreat. The new pax listens to (ie: reads) the bullying responses and then redirects the conversation.
It's not helping much, because no matter what I do, or what I write, or how I write it, he turns it into berating me, or going off on a tangent related to the divorce. He makes up so much stuff and that becomes his truth. Theres no clarifying or explaining, because we'll just keep going down the rabbit hole. He has no desire to actually hear anything I have to say. Which was prevalent in the marriage. So, I take it upon myself to try to keep the content focused while biting my tongue. After 2.5 years... I'm SO over it!
Ugh.... It's like dealing with the worlds brattiest teenager. I know many of you understand.
Anyway, that's all I got for now. Wishing you all a lovely week!
