Squinting at the morning sun

[bttrfly]

Cil my darling you're doing great and I'm thrilled for you!

I am learning more and more of my own worth and attributes as I move on without him. I like me and who I am revealing myself to be. It sounds trite and maybe a little boastful, but he threw away a good woman

Well my dear I will let you in on a little secret. The last nine months of my marriage my exh spent every other week across the country. Our relationship was based on phone calls and texts. I still have some of the photos of me blowing kisses that I would send him every night to say good night. Two and a half years later I look at these photos and remember him saying, "You'd be a real knock out if you could just lose the weight" ... and now I think, "WTF? I AM a real knock out, you doofus! If you can't see how lucky you were, then you don't deserve to have me!" and Cil, I MEAN it. And Cil - I don't even think I'm being boastful or vain. It's the truth, but it took me losing my marriage and living away from him for 2.5 years to understand this. So - good on you for figuring out sooner than I did how magnificent you really are!

Now, don't lose sight of that ever again my friend!!

love you madly,
-B. xxoxoxoxoxoo