Good morning Roist, You've been through quite a lot, and have held steady even when you didn't want to. I'm sure this bit of cycling will come and go and you will be on the other side of it wiser and more sure of what you want than you are at the moment.
I can tell you, as someone who failed at saving her marriage -
* is there peace now? Yes. but i truly wish i could have learned these lessons a different way and kept my family intact.
* it is a major effort to make sure we all don't divorce from each other - son, exh and me. I'm sure my boy feels it even more keenly as he has no siblings, but he's also older and remembers a loving happy family life.
* you don't get over it. you learn to live with it. you learn to accept, but "getting over" - no, that isn't what happens in my experience, or in my observations
* start living the way you want to live. You never know - your wife might find that so attractive that she joins you there.
Yes, you need to let it out. keep sharing
xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
