It's a new dawn, new day, new life....

[Shining]

Hi, All, just popping back in for updates on everyone. Lots of new names on the boards, so probably not many here that will remember me, but maybe a few.

Treasur, LOL thank you!!! Gotta love dem shoes!! AND my favorite word!

UPDATE:

I'm still living my runaway life on a beautiful island in the Pacific NW. Raising my youngest of four, my D(now16), and trying to give her the best years I can before she goes off to college.

My twins(21) are serving in the military, and one comes back from the middle east next week. The other one is a Sergeant and is happy as ever.

My S#3(19) is thriving in college and is living in a house with 5 other guy friends. He is about 2 hrs from me, and contacts me all the time letting me know how things are. The kids seem to know to check-in with their mama and they make sure I'm alright.

Today would have been my wedding anniversary. I am celebrating by taking myself out for dinner. My xMIL sent me a fb message acknowledging the day, which was so awesome. I felt myself choke up a little throughout the day, but after 3 years, I can finally get through it without the full melt-down I once had.

I don't cry about xh anymore. Er, rarely. I used to. Twice a day, at least. I think about him, yes. But it's different. It still confuses me, this whole MLC thing. How a seemingly perfect H can blow up a family. How a once two-peas-in-a-pod kind of guy can suddenly be a ghost to me. How his entire personality could change so severely.

XH is still living with his current gf (not ow). That's all I know. Whatevs.

I know I am date-able. I now know I am worthy of a great guy, IF I want one. I also know that I am putting my D16 first until she graduates HS, and there isn't a man who can turn my head enough to make me look away from her right now. At least not for another year and a half.

I'm not a hovering parent. I watch from the sidelines more than most. I do want to be available to her and make sure she knows I pay attention. My commitment is to her for now.

The small town we live in is amazing. Since it's D16 and me against the world, I love that we live in a remote area where we don't even have to lock our doors. And she is loving her school. She has had a bf for just over a year. He is awesome. I mean, marriage material, this one lol. They are the cutest things and she giggles all the time. Music to my ears.

I won't lie and say I'm not lonely sometimes. But the lonely times pass. I would rather be lonely and available to my D16 than with someone who distracts me from these years I can't get back. I can put that on hold for a year and a half or so. My time will come.

I think about my board-friends often. You know who you are!! I hope you all are well and living incredible loves with fabulous shoes!!! MUAH!!!