SBJ took the words out of my mouth, Gordie. Get a heavy bag and some gloves, or do something physical. This stress needs to come out of your body. Even if it's just a long walk around the neighborhood, do something to get yourself moving. It really helps more than you think.
Also, I'm sure the stress of trying to keep up a normal appearance for the kids is not helping at all. I remember having to do that and I'm so glad that part of this is over.
Again, as others have said, you're in the eye of the storm my friend. It's horrible but trust us - this will pass. You are going through a terrible thing, and your feelings are absolutely natural and normal. If it's too much to negotiate directly with her, look into hiring a mediator.
hang in there Gordie. You are a wonderful man who did not deserve this. You will get through it, even when you think you won't. We are here for you. Try your very best to keep things in the day/ in the moment if necessary. Try your very best not to think too far ahead. Keep it to what you'll be doing the next week only.
Take some time for yourself, a few minutes every day. Go out one night this week either with guy friends or by yourself to get some peace and space from the situation.
Think about what you want and need and focus on that.
This is not going to be easy, but you will get through it. Peace is on the other side. Believe me.
Sending prayers to you and your family.
xoxoxoxo {{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
