Thanks Tread... but don't be sorry! Trust me, this was me pushing this. If it were up to her, I think I would be in the same spot for years. It has already been 2.5 years!!!! BTW, she will never see me shed a tear ever again.
Hey Sotto. Yes! I have to put dancing on my list! I need to get some rhythm! I am going to do it.. I promise you that. I think 2018 is going to be fantastic. I am excited about it.
I am just sky high right now. Funny, I was feeling great right before she came back, meh as we were hanging out for a year, and then great when she is gone again. Interesting right?!? I am just so much more confident and out going now. Enjoying life. I am not sure if she sucked some of that away during our 20 year ordeal or what. She mentioned my changes numerous times. She would say stuff like..."who are you" or "do I even know you"?
I did a volunteer day with people from work where we took 3-4 yr old inner city kids to a farm for apple picking. That is a whole story in itself, but our group leader, who does not work with us and I didn't know was gorgeous, really pretty. I figured she must have a good heart if she was the leader for this volunteer day. So I chatted with her over the course of the day and then got her number. Nice, way to go! We chatted a bit since and turns out she is 24.. HAHA! whoops! She didn't look it! She looked late 20's easy. So nothing going on there but it boosts the confidence a bit. My age radar is completely off. That's the second time that has happened this month.
I do feel bad for WW though in a way. I mean nothing is changing, we are over. But if she really does regret everything she has done, then man, that is a tough thing to live with the rest of your life right? I still care for her and want her to have a good life, but man does she seem to be a mess.
