Yesterday WW came by and we finally got to finishing off our D paper work. It has been a while since I posted details. But after she gave me the same spiel for the third time in early August, I decided it was over (I really decided way back in January). So I started doing all the paper work myself and we decided that we would do a joint petition, no lawyers, keep everything very simple. It was very civil. She wanted literally nothing.
Basically, all she had to do was sign some papers, get them notarized with me and then I would go drop them off at the court. She blew me off a few times but finally yesterday, we got them done.
Lots and lots of tears on her part. I actually felt bad. She said 'this is not what she wants'. That is the same exact line she said on BD day 2.5 years ago, except that was talking about our marriage. HA! Lot of regret and sorrow on her part. She said it's all happening so fast. I told her this is the right thing to do because I cannot make her happy. Then she really cried and again called me the perfect husband (I HATE when she uses that line). Anyway, we got through it, got them notarized and then went for an hour long walk or so. It was fine.
The weird thing is.... I felt no emotions during all of this. Nothing. Not sadness, obviously not glee. At one point, she looked up at me and asked if I was going to cry. I just said... no. I just wasn't close to crying. How strange right? I guess that is another sign for me that this is 100% the right thing.
Then she left and she texts me how sad she is. How life was so good with me, how she wishes she did things differently and she has so much regret. I just validated as best I could but really did not know what to say. Then I dropped the papers off at the court. So I guess this will all be over soon for me as long as I did everything correctly.
Crazy! But I am looking forward to starting things over. All ready have lots of plans. I have to make some good 2018 goals. My confidence is now growing by the day... I like it! I am way, waaay more social than I was 2.5 years ago... I like that too!
