The answer to all of your questions is you're not detached. When you're detached, those questions won't be meaningful. Use those brain cycles to work on yourself.
I have to agree with Doodler I think you are still looking for a reaction and that means your not detached. I get it I was doing the same thing 4 months ago.
When you say your "acting happy" does that mean you are happy or your pretending your'e happy?
