This used to be easier - and a lot more fun, cont.

[DonH]

Wow, look at this, it's "only" been 30 days since my last update/post here and I'm back with an update. Proud of me?

I finally did a vacation. Now, I do travel quite a bit and most of you would say many of these are vacations, and to be honest they are, but this was 100% for fun only - at it really was great. While I've been to Washington DC several times, I've never had the time to really explore so I finally did it last week and had a blast - at least for the most part. I, of course, went by myself. Amazing how everyone or at least nearly everyone I told, including my parents, the first words out of their mouth are "who are you going with." I just get the feeling many think, "hmmmmmmm that's odd," when I tell them just by myself. My parents just feel bad for me I'm sure.

To be honest I'm great at traveling on my own and a trip like this was the perfect one - compared to like a cruise or beach or all inclusive or something. I got to do what I wanted, when I wanted, no deciding with a group where we should go, what we should see, where we should eat, etc. I just did it. Saw so many great things and I will tell all of you this, if you visit DC and DON'T take time to see the Newseum and the Holicost Museum, you are really missing out. Of course Air and Space, the monuments, Arlington, White House, Capital, Archives, etc. should be on the list too but don't miss Holicost or Newseum.

I actually got a luxury apartment - as cheaply or cheaper than a hotel in the same area. No room service or daily housekeeping but a full kitchen, two baths, living room, you name it. It also came with an incredible roof top area that had no one using it the couple times I stopped up. It would have been a beyond romantic setting - had I not been by myself of course. That part was a bit depressing.

I was open to meeting people although not much of that happened. I was going to try to connect with someone from high school that lives out there but in the end I chickened out. I've not communicated with her at all in like 10 years and just didn't have the guts. Of course, after I return and post a few photos on social media, one of her best friends contacts me and asks if I checked in with her. Grrrrrrrrr now I really wish I would have. I'm just not good at that stuff and really need to push myself more. In fact, I was not even all that excited about going until I got there and then loved it. That is often the case. I don't want to call someone, or go someplace or do something - sometimes even dread it - but then when I do I really enjoy it. Still, the next time it comes up, I'm back to the same place in my mind.

I've been doing a few more talks on the opiate epidemic and simply LOVE it. I so want to do more of this and to be honest have all sort of people that would like to have me speak - they just can't pay me. Therefore the challenge is to figure out how to both do a lot of speaking and make a living as well. I've already had several people from Tuesday's talk contact me - mostly for help/advice with a loved one struggling with heroin or other opiate addiction. I so enjoy talking to these people. It's a great GAL (doing the talks) and I intend to continue - but just like getting my butt in gear to make the vacation happen, I need to get my butt in gear to make this happen as well.

A new company rented an office at the main client I have. I am in there a couple times a week but due to vacation last week was in 4 times this week. This little blonde hottie keeps walking past but won't even make eye contact. She's likely about 10 years younger but that's all I know. Since they are right next door to me I hear everything, including two of them talking about going on a third date with a new guy - I don't think it's "her" but her co-worker. Very funny to listen to. Felt like I was in high school or college for crying out loud as the girl is talking about how she is nervous to "eat in front of her date" I mean really?

I don't know, kind of a boring update I'd say. No wonder I only post occasionally. LOL Slightly busy weekend with plans pretty much all weekend long. I have to say, on balance I do think I feel better since I gave up trying to date. I'm getting nearly the same outcome but less anxiety, angst and feeling like crap.

If anything changes, you'll all be among the first to know!