MLC or WAS... either way, I'm here

[LAJar]

I've held back because I also have some apprehension. SIL has reached out to my brother and son as well to apologize for her brother. She also tell me a cousin knows and is really upset with him. Some of MIL's friends came to visit a few weeks back and were very supportive of me, angry with him. I know they don't agree with what he's doing. I think this is why I would feel comfortable contacting his aunts, but don't want to put them in an uncomfortable postion, if that's what they feel. I also thought writing a card, as opposed to a call would take any pressure off of them. I know blood is thicker than water and have no expectations of initiating or carrying out any future contact.

Being honest in why I might reach out are a few reasons. Primary is as I said before, give me some closure. I resent the way H has cut off my family and would like to end it in a better way - really just to tell them I love them and thank them for always treating me & S like family. Second to acknowledge my love for H and how I wished this would have ended differently. Basically to say not my choice and wish we could have worked on our marriage. And lastly, because these would be two people who H might be open to and actually hear, to say I would be open to reconciling in the future. As a way of saying, if he speaks to them & ever expresses remorse to encourage him to reach out to me. I know as long as he's w/ OW, nothing they say can change his mind right now. I don't want to encourage them to discuss any of this w/ him, unless it comes from him.

I really have to think about this. And maybe if that's what I have to do, I will conclude I shouldn't.