JoeJoe, she saw me as emotionally abusive because I emotionally withdrew when there was conflict in our M. I would go a day or two without talking to her. That is my fault - I have looked deep inside, owned it, and apologized to her for it. I wish I could actually improve on it with her, but I think it's not appropriate in my sitch now. I'm not denying that I didn't do these things to her, I just refuse to accept the "abuse" label. Why? Well TBH I suspect she may try to use my apologies as an admission of guilt in the D case. Unfortunately I have to weigh the legal side of things in my mind now.
East, I guess I don't get why the R talks are so bad. I'll admit I don't see the point in them. I am certainly not pursuing. But maybe a part of me is thinking it's my way of leaving a crack in the door. I'm almost ashamed to say it, but there's still a part of me that would think about taking her back. Maybe it's just my ego so that I won't have the pain of rejection any more.
Me-47,XW-43 S13,S16 M:18 BD:4-23-17 W filed:7-17-17 (5 months of in-house separation hell) W moved out:1-6-18 D granted:2-15-18 Decree signed:3-29-18
