I love this, great idea! I think it's cathartic to do these exercises, even for someone whose long since moved past D. Here's mine:
W, well it's been over 5 years now and to be honest I'm still confused about what happened. I was committed to you, the kids and the M for life and I know in my heart you felt the same up until the last year or two. You never told me what changed, maybe you don't know yourself. Sometimes you have to do what your heart tells you even if your mind says otherwise.
I know you've seen me change a lot since BD, I've become more of a free spirit- riding my motorcycles, pumping iron, getting all the ink work, dating someone half my age. But deep inside it's still me, that same young guy whose leather jacket you snuck into a hiding spot in your closet so he would have a reason to come see you again, the kid who talked you into playing hookie from work for the first time in your life so you could cuddle in bed with him a few more hours, the young man who stood on top of a light house with you and took your hand in his and said "let's get married" much to your surprise, the middle-aged man who stood with tears in his eyes as he watched his first child being born, the aging man who sat next to you with tears again watching that same baby walk across the stage with her college degree in her hand. So many wonderful, amazing moments together, both remembered and forgotten.
I saw myself living out my remaining years with you, in sickness and in health. But life had other plans, and even though I am happy and living a full life, I will always carry that loss and sadness in my heart too. I hope you look back on our time together with the same sense of warmth and love that I do. And I truly hope your future is filled with joy and happiness.
