Help needed from Far-east.

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Nothing much in past 10 days. We went to work, had lunch and dinner separately mostly, slept in different room. However, we had conversations at work but not a lot like used to.

She asked me to take a walk or go shopping with her almost everyday(I went sometime). She touched me when talked to me. When I went somewhere she asked to join. She looked at my Facebook to see if I talk to anyone. Also, if I spent money buying things she asked if I spent it for s.o.

However, she is still texting and talking to OM.

Why is she doing this?
Why is she concerning about me?
Is she picking the side? or she wants to keep both for now?

We all will go to Japan next week for a week. I don't want to ruin it. So, I will do what works for now. But after this trip...I don't know.

Please give me strength to stay in this game. Sometime I wonder what the he** am I doing here? I am doing thing that most people don't. I feel like I could give up anytime.